ramble...

so i watched "the box"

"hit a button on a box,
it kills a person you don't know,
you get 1million dollars."

my wife did not watch this so i relayed to her the idea
and asked her what she would do?...

i say i could not push it.
i would want to but know i couldn't.
my wife would push it.
zero hesitation.
i don't fault her for this either.
she is practical and logical.
i am emotional and sentimental.
i said what if it's a baby,
she says stop over analyzing it,
i say how could i not?
she argued people die all the time.
irrelevant i say.
both are lives that i have no hand in creating
or taking.
i don't even believe in god or an afterlife?
yet i couldn't do it?
couldn't decide someone's fate by pushing a button.
is a life worth 1million dollars?
2million?
i still don't fault her since i see her logic.
people DO die all the time.
i have been there when some have died,
to see those last minutes,
the last time they will know the love of someone they hold close...
i couldn't do it since i am too damn emotional.


this movie has messed with my psyche and i can't stop thinking about it.
tell me what you would do?
the truth.
no judging any such way on this,
for you or my wife.